On Self Portraits
I created a new set of self portraits last year. I intended to include the ‘tools of my trade’ to maybe use for marketing, but the session shifted during the process.
When I do self portraits, I usually take a full day to center myself and let it take me where it takes me. My thoughts this time took me to an unexpected place of heavy introspection and contemplating my life after turning 50 in February.
I debated the path of the winding road that has lead me to this third career of photography. I considered my style and where I can flourish in the market versus where I will be asked to marginalize my creative soul.
I wondered about existence. Am I merely an extension of a device that moves through life facing backwards, freezing moments that fade to oblivion?
I contemplated that if my identity as a photographer is so ingrained, that without a camera in my hand, I functionally don’t exist.
It’s been a struggle this year, even though it’s been my best 4 month run of business since I started full-time 5 years ago. I battle myself and my self-worth constantly.
I wondered if this path is the right one for me.
“When the portraits were completed, I felt a lot better about my position and process.”
These meditative diversions in the artistic process can provide answers to questions that lie deep within. They can lead to creative and personal breakthroughs that you didn’t know were possible.
I would later submit the following image to Portrait Masters, which is a professional group that I am currently an Associate member of. They have multiple events for submitting work for Awards and Accreditation per year. The below image scored a Silver Award, finishing in the top 10 in the Monochrome category—out of nearly 1000 images entered.
Another important part of self portraits are to document transformative and impactful moments in your life. It is good to chronicle not only the great moments, but the trying moments as well. These are the stories of your life. They are worth remembering, for they show your humanity.
I can only say the the process of self portraits is a huge piece of my creative puzzle. If you are not doing them now, you should start today! It will challenge your emotions, hone your skills, and open new doors to creativity.
I would love to create a timeless portrait for you. Contact me and let’s create stunning wall art and portrait collections.